1.Drive
I've been watching myself, turning from bad to worse
I've been locked up in the basement putting bad habits first
I won't answer my phone cus I wanna be left alone
Just shed all the skin that makes me well and choke
I'm not alive
I'm just as good as dead
I can't find a reason why I should even get outta bed
Just make it stop
Just make it go away
I'll give you everything I have if you got the right words to
say
I've been watching myself, turning from bad to worse
I've been locked up in the basement putting bad habits first
I won't answer my phone cus I wanna be left alone
Just shed all the skin that makes me well and choke
But I can't get by
I haven't slept in years
If I can just get away from my shadow I'm in the clear
Then it will stop
And it will all go away
I'll be everything I want, everything I wanted to be
I'm outta my mind and outta your sight
I'm outta my mind and outta your sight
I'm outta my mind and outta your sight
I'm outta my mind and outta your sight
I'm outta my mind and outta your sight
I'm outta my mind and outta your sight
I'm outta my mind and outta your sight
I'm outta my mind
So I just drive
It doesn't matter where
I put my foot to the floor let the wind blow through my hair
I'll never stop
There's nothing for me out there
I'll be everything I want, everything I wanted to be
2.Their Own Medicine
I know it's fucked up but I can't forget
All of the shit that happened in the past
Before I fall asleep every night
I'll think about it and it just ain't right
And if we ever cross paths again
I'll do what I have to to make this shit end
Tired of thinking about it all the time
No one could have given a shit, it affect my life
To everyone that's been a victim
That's something I understand
And if you're looking for a reason
You got one in each hand
I'd love to see us take back what they took from us
Give them some of their own medicine
I'd love to see us take back what they took from us
Give them some of their own medicine
For all the weak ones and for all the poor
For all the tortured who can't take anymore
Don't ever let them get the best of you
Sometimes the only thing that you can do
Is wait until you cross paths again
You'll be in position to make it all end
You've been dreaming about it all this time
And it will no more affect your life
To everyone that's been a victim
That's something I understand
And if you're looking for a reason
You got one in each hand
I'd love to see us take back what they took from us
Give them some of their own medicine
I'd love to see us take back what they took from us
Give them some of their own medicine
To everyone that's been a victim
That's something I understand
And if you're looking for a reason
You got one in each hand
I'd love to see us take back what they took from us
Give them some of their own medicine
I'd love to see us take back what they took from us
Give them some of their own medicine
Some of their own medicine
3.Trying To Breathe
I think I'm having a heart attack
I don't do much of what I should of have done
If I could you know I would take it back
Wide awake in a lot of pain
Thinking I might not see the next day and
Hoping that I got it in me to see this through
I say things that I can't take back
I torch bridges while I attack and
Compensate by laying myself out flat
I just hope I live long enough to be able to see you again
And I hope I don't have to suffer the night without you at the
end
I hate every second of the god damn day
Give me anything you got I don't care, it's all the same
I need something to take so I don't feel any more
Need something stronger than the night before,
I need it before its too late
When it hits me I, I didn't have a choice
I'm screaming so loud I can't hear my own voice
Just make it go away
And I'll just focus on trying to breathe
And I'll just focus on trying to breathe
And I'll just focus on trying to breathe
And I'll just focus on trying to breathe
Feels like I'm having a heart attack
I don't do much of what I should of have done
If I could you know I would take it back
I just hope I live long enough to be able to see you again
And I hope I don't have to suffer the night without you at the
end
I hate every second of the god damn day
Give me anything you got I don't care, it's all the same
I just hope I live long enough to be able to see you again
And I hope I don't have to suffer the night without you at the
end
I hate every second of the god damn day
Give me anything you got I don't care, it's all the same
4.ZZYZX
For reasons, for reasons, for reasons,
You can't understand, no
For reasons, for reasons, for reasons,
You can't understand, no
For reasons, for reasons, for reasons,
You can't understand, no
For reasons, for reasons, for reasons,
You can't understand, no
I gotta get away, if I'm ever gonna find a cure
I gotta separate myself from the rest of the world
I gotta be alone right now
Thank you for all that you've done,
But its slim and it wasn't enough
The doctors, the dealers, the shrinks and friends can't help as
much
As being alone right now
It's everything I want, it's everything I need
It's all that I can hope for now that I don't have to run
It's everything I want, it's everything I need
It's all that I can hope for
Living in desolation, in desolation....
For reasons, for reasons,
I can't describe without seeming insane
For reasons, for reasons
I'm flushing myself down and getting away
For reasons, for reasons
Never coming back, never again
For reasons, for reasons
I'll find myself or you'll find me dead
I gotta get away, if I'm ever gonna find a cure
I gotta separate myself from the rest of the world
I gotta be alone right now
It's everything I want, it's everything I need
It's all that I can hope for
Living in desolation, in desolation....
5.The Eyes Of Death
I've been to hell with no plan for return,
I've seen things that'll make your eyes burn
I've seen the eyes of death through a loved one dying
And once you've sen this you're not the same
Taste what was once was good and turn it to pain
All you got left is to turn to the ones around you
And without you, yeah, without you
I probably would have given up on everything long ago
I haven't been able to sleep through the night,
I can't stop shaking i never feel right
I'd said i've come to terms, but i guess i was lying
I don't know what i'm suppose to be and the way the world is
pushing me
Off the edge is a constant feeling of a body fighting
But i found you, yeah, i found you
Please wait for me i got to finish this on my own
I don't know, don't know, what i'm suppose to do, supposed to do
Because i've lost all hope inside and shattered through and
through
When you're all alone, that night to you
Fall asleep with me in mind, and i still hope that you do
I got problems that never go away
My solution run away every day
The same old place will catch up to me
Pipe down and you'll see all that i don't want
The headaches and pain
And the problems that drain
And you could make it come from a life like this
and please forgive me because
I don't know, don't know, what i'm suppose to do, supposed to do
Because i've lost all hope inside and shattered through and
through
When you're all alone, that night to you
Fall asleep with me in mind, and i still hope that you do
6.Old Man
I'd had enough so i walked out the door,
Don't expect to hear much from me anymore
This chapter is closed, its the end of the line
I can't keep on feeling like this all the time
None of the sadness is going away
Nothing will change until you let yourself live
I know i'm like you in more ways than one
And i truly hate the man i've become
I guess thats a part, yeah, its all crossed the line
You're running out of time, the ends almost here
And none of the sadness if going away
I never understood why you wanted nothing to do with me
And in time everything will turn out all right,
you're not a part of it
And every time i fall down and lose sight,
you are the cause of it
No one will ever help me now, because no one will ever see
The sickness and sadness that you so kindly passed on to me
Now i roam around the world looking for life
You're not apart of it
And we've passed the point of making everything right
Thats the worst part of it
And in time everything will turn out all right, you'll not be a
part of it
And every time i fall down and lose sight, you are the cause of
it
No one will ever help me now, because no one will ever see
The sickness and sadness that you kindly passed on to me
7.All I Can Do
Everything that you say interests me
Now and into far memories
And all i want is the day to go away
In the morning with my eyes wide open
I lay in bed defeated and broken,
Sick to death of the pain inside of me
I got no money and i never will
All i got in the mail are medical bills
And boys warning that they're going to come be coming from me
Close the shit up and lock the door
...
Shut off the world with the help of my pharmacy
And nothing can motivate me
I guess this is what i'll always be
Searching for any opportunity to do all i can do to keep from
being awake
I do all i can do to keep from being awake
I do all i can do
I can do i can do
I do all i can do
I can do i can do
I do all i can do to keep from being awake
I do all i can do to keep from being awake
I do all i can do to keep from being awake
I do all i can do to keep from being awake
8.I Need You
I'm broke, I'm broke
I can't take it anymore, i've had enough
I don't know what to do
I can't move, i can't move
I've damaged myself
and there's no turning back to regroup
It's a lonely road, its a long jagged path
Don't know if i will be able to last
I need you, i need you
You don't know how much you can help with what little you do
I'm confused, i'm confused
I know i need help, and thats why i'm turning to you
I'm having trouble dealing with loss and coming to terms
That with the fact that it cost me my whole life by running away
I'm unable to deal with the pain, trying to find someone else i
can blame
It's obvious the only one to blame is me, is me
I need you, i need you
You don't know how much you can help with what little you do
I need you, i need you
You don't know how much you can help with what little you do
9.Spare Time
How do you spend your spare time
what do you do to pass the day
do you focus on the bad times
and how you never get your way
you're never gonna be ok
you're gonna be sick til your dying day
How do you spend your spare time
what do you do to pass the day
do you focus on the bad times
and how you never get your way
you're never gonna be ok
you're gonna be sick til your dying day
don't you take a prescription
to keep that smile on your face
you know it's just another illusion
living your life in shades of grey
but I only see red and blue
and never know what to do
what happened to innocence,
what happened to me and you
How do you spend your spare time
what do you do to pass the day
How do you spend your spare time
what do you do to pass the day
How do you spend your spare time
what do you do to pass the day
How do you spend your spare time
what do you do to pass the day
10.I Just Want You To Know
I don't want you be worried now
And I don't want you to lose sleep
And I don't want you to be concerned about me
So please don't be
I don't want you check up on me
Because I don't want you to see
Everything that I've become
It makes me seem, seem so weak
I don't want you to feel overwhelmed
Its so unnecessary
Take all the time that you need for yourself
To see the things I see
I don't want you to write me letters
I'm so tired that I can't read
I don't want you to give me advice
Just close your eyes and listen to me
I just want you to know that I think about you all the time
You're always on my mind
I would never let anyone hurt you, with me by your side
You're safe as long as I'm alive
I just want you to know that I think about you all the time
You're always on my mind
I would never let anyone hurt you, with me by your side
You're safe as long as I'm alive
11.My Episodes
I don't wanna be alone, and i don't wanna be high
But thats the way i've been living life
I don't know what i want, or what i'm running from
Should have filled up last stop, now my light is on
I don't wanna be home, and i don't want the road
Don't want to tell any one about my episodes
What would i wouldn't do for just one glimpse of you
Sitting across from me sharing this scenery
And now, but more time wasting
My life looking for what's not there
I've come too far to be this unhappy
I'm just happy right now that your arms are around me
I don't wanna be alone, and i don't wanna be high
But thats the way i've been life
What i wouldn't do, for just one glimpse of you
Sitting across from me sharing this scenery
And now, but more time wasting
My life looking for whats not there
I've come too far to be this unhappy
I'm just happy right now that your arms are around me
I'm just happy right now that your arms are around me
Nothing can prepare for us for what life chucks at our feet
I'm just happy right now that your arms are around me
I'm just happy right now that your arms are around me
I'm just happy right now that your arms are around me
12.Clear The Air
I wanted to tell you, i wanted to share,
Some important details that you're unaware
I want you to listen, i want you to care,
I'll choke to death if i don't clear the air
It's not a secret that i obsess,
And then i get angry, and then i get stressed
And you can't imagine, you can't compare,
You have no frame of reference and then you get scared
I'm doing my best to help make you see,
That its not your fault, when i'll beg and i'll plead
Its much easier to go back to sleep,
We gotta find a place to start because i'm falling apart
I never feel happy, i never feel safe,
I can't let myself ever stay in one place
I look in the mirror and i see the face
Of a failure who will never be significant
The face that you see from morning to night
Is the mask that i put on to hide whats inside
I don't take it off until you fall asleep,
I don't want you to see what live inside of me
I thought i'd get older and it'd go away,
But it only gets worse and causes more pain
And being alone is getting so hard, i just got to tell you
God damnit, i'm falling apart
I now have my reason to die
Feeling for whatever is left
But the pieces are falling too far
God damnit, i'm falling apart
I now have my reason to die
Feeling for whatever is left
But the pieces are falling too far
Don't leave yet, i haven't got to the part that explains at all
Don't leave yet, i need some body there to catch me before i
fall
God damnit i'm falling apart
I wanted to tell you, i wanted to share,
Some important details that you're unaware
I want you to listen, i want you to care,
I'll choke to death if i don't clear the air right now
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